Today is July 31st….I thought that my heart would simply stop with the news that I received @3am, 2 years ago today. There's nothing in this world that can prepare you to hear that anyone has passed away- even if it's "expected".
I lost my grandmother on this day and I think I've finally gotten to where there is some degree of normalcy in my life concerning her. This just means that the fighting over what she may have had in assets has simply calmed down and people have stopped bothering ME about it.
I've finally laid my grandmother to rest, but still miss her dearly. The feeling of missing NEVER goes away, it just gets put off or distracted by daily life- then it's back again FULL BLAST. I wish I could call her and just say, "hello"…..or hear her singing in the morning as she did when she was getting ready, spraying her White Linen perfume….or on rough mornings where she lay coaxing herself out of bed with a, "Get up, Bunty".
Though I miss her and today's date only brings those missing feelings to the forefront, I've promised myself that I won't let it get the best of me and I WILL NOT be in a state of melancholy all day long. I'll instead be happy, keeping in mind some of the greatest and happiest memories….all day…..knowing that I got to meet and live my life with such a wonderful person.